Someone asked me yesterday what the one thing is that I'm most afraid of. My answer at the time was loneliness. Not singleness, mind you, but loneliness, which can occur in any marital state.
After further reflection, however, if I could change my answer, I would respond "not being enough." I have done my best to be the best version of me possible, but I fear that there is an ideal out there - reasonable or unreasonable - that in another person's eyes, I am unable to meet.
I fear that I will never excite anyone enough to the point of asking "Will you marry me?" I fear that men are chasing an experience rather than a heart.
I fear that no one will prove these thoughts wrong.
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